Wynonna Judd performs onstage during CMT and Sandbox Live's "Naomi...

Wynonna Judd performs onstage during CMT and Sandbox Live's "Naomi Judd: A River Of Time Celebration" at Ryman Auditorium on May 15 in Nashville, Tenn. Credit: Getty Images for CMT / Katie Kauss

Country music star Wynonna Judd on Sunday gave public voice to her feelings about her mother and musical partner Naomi Judd's suicide almost exactly one month earlier, writing on social media that she was "checking in" to share her thoughts.

"There is so much happening in the world right now. So before I sat down to write this, I thought, 'No…I just don't know what to say.' Then, I heard the words from my life coach asking me, 'What do you know?' And I began to cry," wrote the Grammy Award-winning singer, on Instagram and Facebook, with a link from Twitter to the Instagram post, a day before her 58th birthday.

"WHAT DO I KNOW??" she continued on her more than 300-word post, saying that "the pain of losing Mom on 4/30 to suicide is so great, that I often feel like I'm not ever going to be able to fully accept and surrender to the truth that she left the way she did. This cannot be how The Judds story ends," she said, adding a broken-heart emoji. Naomi Judd died of a self-inflicted gunshot wound a day before her and Wynonna's induction into the Country Music Hall of Fame.

"I DO know,” Wynonna Judd went on, "that in order to be a healthier grandparent to my firstborn grandchild Kaliyah, {born 4/13, 2 weeks & 2 days before Mom left}, to break the cycle of addiction & family dysfunction, that I must continue to show up for myself {first} and do the personal healing work. I know that it is a simple steps program, and those steps are not easy to take at times. Therefore, I've made a commitment to keep doing the 'next right thing,' and schedule weekly appointments," presumably meaning therapy, "so that I continue with the ongoing work, even when I have good days."

She did not specify which of her two children was the parent of her granddaughter. Judd has a son, Elijah, 27, and a daughter, Grace, who turns 26 on June 21 and was sentenced to 8 years in prison for parole violation in 2018.

"I DO know," Judd went on, "that I feel so helpless — right now especially [and] that as corny as it sounds, 'Love Can Build A Bridge,' " referencing the Judds' 1990 album and Grammy-winning title track, also the title of Naomi Judd's 1993 memoir. "I find myself humming the song that Mom wrote for the fans, to myself here on the farm at night."

The half sister of actor Ashley Judd, Wynonna Judd conceded "that I'm not able to do this grieving thing all by myself, and that it's okay to reach out for help. I will continue to fight for my faith, for my SELF, for my family, and I WILL continue to show up & sing," and concluded, "Thank you all for your love and support. Let's check in more often."

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