Rapper Nicki Minaj, whose new autobiographical song "All Things Go" alludes to her having had an abortion years ago, described the real-life circumstances in a new interview.
Minaj was attending the LaGuardia High School of Music & Art and the Performing Arts, aka "The 'Fame' school," she said, when she became pregnant with her first serious boyfriend, an older man from Queens. "I thought I was going to die," she told Rolling Stone magazine. "I was a teenager. It was the hardest thing I'd ever gone through." Her decision to have an abortion, she added, has "haunted me all my life," though she remains a supporter of abortion rights. "It'd be contradictory if I said I wasn't pro-choice. I wasn't ready," she explained. "I didn't have anything to offer a child."
Minaj, 32, had also referenced her abortion in the 2008 song "Autobiography," from the mixtape "Sucka Free," which she told the magazine she "didn't expect anyone to hear."
In "All Things Go," from her "Pinkprint" album, she sings about her younger brother, Micaiah, and her unborn child: "My child with Aaron, would've been sixteen, any minute / So in some ways I feel like 'Caiah, is the both of them / It's like he's 'Caiah's little angel, looking over him."
In the interview she also discussed black celebrities not speaking out about racism, blaming it on the backlash to Kanye West's political comments during a Hurricane Katrina fundraiser, in which he said, "[President] George Bush doesn't care about black people."
"He was the unofficial spokesman for hip-hop, and he got torn apart," Minaj said. "And now you haven't heard him speaking about these last couple things, and it's sad. Because how many times can you be made to feel horrible for caring about your people before you say, [expletive], it's not worth it. . . . "