Singer-songwriter Taylor Swift says a file's worth of threats against her life have necessitated the use of personal security.
"I fought the idea of having security for a very long time, because I really value normalcy. I really do," Swift, 24, says in the new issue of Esquire. "I like to be able to take a drive by myself. Haven't done that in six years," she says, since bodyguards "have to be in a car behind me."
The reason for such vigilance is well-documented, she adds. "Because just the sheer number of men we have in a file who have showed up at my house, showed up at my mom's house, threatened to either kill me, kidnap me or marry me. This is the strange and sad part of my life that I try not to think about. I try to be lighthearted about it, because I don't ever want to be scared. I don't want to be walking down the street scared. And when I have security, I don't have to be scared."
The "Shake It Off" singer says she tries to temper her wariness in fan situations. "I just have to wake up in the morning and say, How am I feeling today? If someone asks for a picture, am I gonna feel imposed upon today because I'm dealing with my own stuff? Am I gonna take my own stuff out on some innocent 14-year-old today and be in a bad mood? . . . Because I will get asked for an autograph, and I will get asked for a picture, and there will be someone with their cellphone filming me at a restaurant. If I'm not in the mood for that, I just kind of stay in. And that's fine. Those days don't happen very often."
Swift's new album, "1989," drops Monday.