Joe Jonas must feel a huge weight just lifted off his chest.
The middle Jonas Brother -- who spent a good part of his teens and early 20s as a member of one of the biggest boy bands in the world, along with brothers Kevin and Nick, until their breakup in October -- came clean about sex, drugs and Disney in an essay published in the Dec. 9 issue of New York Magazine.
Joe Jonas, now 24, shares intimate details about growing up as a pastor's kid, the band's early days, Disney's influence and the immense pressure of it all. He describes it as "the kind of pressure that no teenager should be under."
Without a doubt the juiciest excerpt is the one in which he describes smoking weed for the first time -- under peer pressure from Miley Cyrus and Demi Lovato, who couldn't have been more than 15. (He says he was 17 or 18.) Joe writes:
"They kept saying, 'Try it! Try it!' so I gave it a shot, and it was all right. I don’t even smoke weed that often anymore."
Fans will also be interested to know that the brothers' purity rings were way overblown, according to Joe, who says he lost his virginity at age 20:
"But back then, we explained that we had made these promises to ourselves when we were younger. A few months later, it comes out that we’re in some cult and that we’re these little staged Mickey Mouse kids. People were coming up to us, saying, “Thank you so much, I’m waiting because you guys are, too!” And we just thought, No! That’s not what we’re about."
He gets pretty personal about his relationships with celebrity exes Ashley Greene ("she was my first serious relationship") and Demi Lovato, as well as his current one with model Blanda Eggenschwiler, though he doesn't mention that one by name. He's not entirely fair to Lovato, with whom he says he's still friends, calling their time together in 2010 "an insane situation to be in," and saying he felt he "was living a lie, because I wasn’t happy but felt like I had to stay in it for her, because she needed help."
Ouch. Lovato has made an amazing comeback since then, going to rehab for substance abuse and self-harm issues shortly after the already-infamous incident Joe Jonas rehashes, so was that really necessary?
Read Joe Jonas' essay in its entirety on vulture.com (warning: some vulgar language) and tell us -- Are you surprised by what he had to say about his life as a Jonas Brother?