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"I was genuinely, so distraught, and in so much pain," Joel said.
"It was near the holidays. I was upset. I don't want to like call
and bother anyone with this anymore, 'cause I'm so sick of this
pain, let me just, go to sleep." Joel took nearly a dozen
homeopathic aspirin pills, ones she thought might help calm her
down. Ones she never thought would hurt her.
It ended up making me feel kind of sick, and then I panicked and I
was just not thinking clearly," she said. "It kind of bothers me,
that the press calls this an overdose. And I take full
responsibility for what I've done. But at the same time, I wasn't
trying to kill myself. I have a flair for the dramatic, OK, I'm an
artist. I'm a performer. Did I actually want to die? Absolutely not.
I was not suicidal."
But her parents weren't taking any chances. Brinkley encouraged
Alexa to admit herself to a psychiatric hospital for intensive
"I knew with my mom that she was feeling the pain I was going
through," Joel said. "I mean she's just such a compassionate,
empathetic woman. And she's so emotional, like me. Overly emotional.
And so she was feeling the trauma as I was feeling it, and then as I
was feeling better she was feeling it, so she was living it with me.
And my father, he has such perspective, he was like, 'You got to see
outside of this. You're an intelligent, talented, beautiful woman.'
He just would build me up so high, so, I -- I have a really good mix
with the two."
Joel credits her parents with pulling her out of the emotional abyss
of depression. And now, she wants to be front and center, as someone
willing to talk to young fans about what she calls "Heartbreak-
"I think every woman, when she's going through this immense
heartbreak and, really, depression and isolation, feels totally
alone," Joel said. "So many women are writing in on Facebook and
MySpace on my page and sending me long letters and they said, 'Thank
you for admitting to it' and 'This issue needs to be brought to
Equally upfront about her physical appearance as she is about her
emotional vulnerabilities, Alexa made headlines recently when she
admitted to rhinoplasty to correct a deviated septum, and to change
"I got a lot of people writing in, 'That's cool, you're so honest,'"
Joel said. "And, so people were asking about it. I wasn't going to
lie, it was clearly a different nose. I didn't want to play anybody
for a fool. So I just said, 'Yeah, and I'm really happy with it.'"