Kate Gosselin, whose reality series "Kate Plus 8" ends Monday, says she is panicking when contemplating post-show life.
"I'm freaking out. Big time," Gosselin, 36, says in the new issue of People magazine. "My kids weren't ready" for the cancellation, which TLC announced last month. "Nobody was. I've never quit a job in my life without having something else lined up. This has been ended for me on a moment's notice. I don't know what's next."
Gosselin -- who with ex-husband Jon Gosselin is a parent of twins born in 2000 and sextuplets born in 2004 -- had been a registered nurse in obstetrics at The Reading Hospital and Medical Center. "After the show was canceled, I said, 'I'll go back to my old nursing job,' " she told People. "If nothing comes up, I'll do it. But the scary reality is, 12-hour nursing shifts every day wouldn't let me continue to provide well for eight kids essentially on my own. When you think about it that way, it gets really scary."
Though a single mom, Gosselin -- whose other ventures have included a stint on "Dancing With the Stars" plus two bestselling books, "Multiple Blessings" and "Eight Little Faces" -- has a staff that includes a bodyguard, Steve Neild, and at least one nanny. Her 6,000-square-foot Wernersville, Pa., home, on a 24-acre property, was valued at $1.1 million in 2009, according to People.
TLC has said it "hopes to check in with Kate and the family periodically with specials." Whatever happens, Gosselin vows, "I told [my kids] I will work my fingers to the bone to make sure that they can stay here and go to their school. There are no guarantees in life for anyone, but they know that I'm giving it my best shot."