Darrell Hammond appears onstage at the 15th Annual Webby Awards...

Darrell Hammond appears onstage at the 15th Annual Webby Awards in New York. (June 13, 2011) Credit: AP

Former "Saturday Night Live" stalwart Darrell Hammond reveals a harrowing, years-long addiction to drugs and alcohol in a memoir being published next month.

"I was drinking, doing coke, cutting myself in my dressing room," Hammond, who spent a record 14 seasons on "SNL" from 1995 to 2009, says on the book jacket of HarperCollins' "God, If You're Not Up There, I'm ----." "I was repeatedly shipped off to rehab or a psychiatric unit, and once taken out of the 'SNL' offices in a straitjacket."

He gives thanks to his colleagues on the sketch show, conceding, "It cannot have been easy to work with me. Over the years, the medication I was on included: Depacote, Lamictal, Zyprexa, Abilify, Zoloft, Ativan, Triavil, and Klonopin."

Hammond, 56 -- who starred as Truman Capote in the play "Tru" at Sag Harbor's Bay Street Theatre until he was hurt in a June 25 car accident in North Haven -- wrote, according to media reports, that "the drinking calmed my nerves and quieted the disturbing images that sprang into my head."

By 2002, "I'd started adding an obscene amount of cocaine to my binges," he wrote, and in 2009, "I had the brilliant idea I should try crack," eventually landing in a Harlem crack house. He sought treatment and recently achieved sobriety. The book will be out Nov. 8.

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